On Friday December 27th 2013, my beautiful Daddy died suddenly in Australia. And our hearts are broken.
After a morning snorkeling on The Great Barrier Reef with his love Dee, they got back on the boat smiling and laughing. Then, with no warning, he suffered a massive aneurysm.
The last thing he knew was blissful happiness, and over the last week and a half, that has bought us all so much comfort.
There are no words to describe what these days have been like. In all honesty, I still don't believe he is gone or understand what has happened; that I'll never speak to him, cuddle him, laugh with him again is ridiculous, and I'm struggling to comprehend that that's really true. In many ways I don't believe it is. In my heart I know that we'll see each other again, some day. But I'm not religious and so have nothing to really guide me at times like this, in terms of belief. With every day that passes, and through conversations with my sister and Grandma especially, I'm figuring it all out in my head though. Working out where my Dad is now and how he'll be by my side, always.
The outpouring of love we've received from around the world has been incredible. My Dad worked in the film industry as a costume designer, and has been working in Australia since September. Throughout his career, he has worked around the world and with so many people, and they all love him. I'm so proud to call him my Dad, today more than ever.
I can't write much here, right now. It's so raw, so hard to fathom. But I wanted to write it here. This is a diary of our lives, the good and the bad, and the heartbreaking. I'm not really sure how much I'll be round here. Grief is a crazy thing, and I've never had to deal with it before. Every day, every hour is different. But I will be posting 52/52, and I will be partaking in this year's 52 Project too so look out for those. More than ever, I've realised the power and meaning of photographs.
Oh, my Papa. I miss you so much already. But I know you are with me, and always will be. Guiding me and holding my hand, and smiling down on us all. You are an inspiration, and I promise to live life to the fullest, as you always have. I love you, now and forever xxx